As we near the Autumnal Equinox this Saturday, I've been reflecting on balance. I often hear myself and others talk about balance as something we strive to attain. It is common to think that once we attain it, we should be able to maintain it as well...as though there is some elusive, static state of balance to arrive at.
Life and nature teach us differently. The time point of the equinox signifies a balance between the hours of light and dark in a day--from the Latin aequus (equal) and nox (night). However, it is a brief point in time ... a passing, literally, of the center of the Sun across the Earth's equator. Most of the year,
we are living in an imbalance of light and dark. So, too, in our lives, there is no "perfect balance" to be attained. As the yin/yang symbol illustrates so beautifully, life is in constant motion.
Living well is about dancing with the complementary energies all around us. There are certainly moments when we experience balance. However, the ever-changing and evolving nature of life means that those moments will pass. When we can let go of the illusion that balance is something to achieve and maintain, it allows for greater ease. By not resisting what is showing up in the moment and simply allowing it to be what it is, we can remember that this, too, will pass.
So, I invite you to notice where you are striving for the illusive "balance" in your life, and simply let it go, accepting that where you are right now is perfect ... and knowing that it will continue to change and evolve. I notice that when I relax and stop beating myself up for not maintaining a perfect balance of work and relaxation, giving to others and self-care, or activity and stillness ... my breath deepens, my shoulders relax, and I am definitely a happier person, regardless of whether I ate or exercised perfectly, got in my ideal "down time," or checked everything off my to-do list!
I'll be celebrating the Equinox this weekend, appreciating the areas of my life where I am feeling balanced, and at the same time, letting go of needing to control or maintain them as such. Life is in constant motion. Let's choose to dance with it!
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Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Mycelial Musings
I continue to witness many people’s lives being turned upside-down in recent months. And while mine hasn’t changed a whole lot from outward appearance, I certainly feel like I’ve been on a never-ending trajectory of internal change and transformation for quite a few years now. As I’ve continued to sit with the “gift of the fungi” (see previous entry), the applications to my life have slowly unfolded . . .
So here I am, 14 months after my first “aha” moment about letting go and the process of decay in the West Virginian woods, and almost 6 months since I was astounded by numerous unique mushrooms in the verdant August woods of upstate New York. Maybe I’m a slow learner that it’s taken this long to gain clarity about why the mushrooms were turning my head. I do know I am a beginner at many things, including seeing the larger picture of my life and integrating the lessons and metaphors that are ever present to teach and guide me. Over these recent months, this fungi metaphor has been simmering within me, and I am harvesting more and more of its application to my life as I learn about the life cycle of mushrooms.
The majority of mushrooms are saprophytic decomposers, which recycle the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen and minerals of dead plants, insects and animals into rich soil. A single fungus can actually kill a large forest, and in so doing, develops deeper soil layers that support the emergence of taller stands of trees. When conditions are right, the microscopic spores that have been released from the gills of a previous mushroom will begin to reproduce by forming interconnected threads (hyphae) that grow and branch, creating a mycelial mat. These mycelium (which look very similar to pictures of brain cell networks, information-sharing systems of the Internet, and computer models of dark matter of the universe) are the source from which mushrooms arise, some sprouting forth, releasing their spores and disintegrating within days, and others lasting for months or years.
This metaphor has been most pertinent for me in terms of my work and business. As I’ve been letting go of my private practice in the form that it was for several years, I’ve noticed that conditions arose to create more connections with others that are supporting the germination of new growth and possibilities for my work. I have a sense that the mycelial mat of my life has been growing in ways I can only glimpse now and then. At the same time, various “mushrooms” have been sprouting forth in the form of upside-down parties, workshops, sound healing events and even cooking winter soups for my neighbors! As different mushrooms sprout up and die quickly while others last for years, so, too, a few of these new ventures will be short-lived and others more enduring.
During this time of change and transition, I’ve experienced my share of discouragement and overwhelm. When something doesn’t take off like I think it will, or the interest (mine or others’) seems to fizzle out as fast as it came, I tend to wonder if I’m wasting my energy. The voices in my head are varied and numerous: Why can’t I seem to get it together and create a “successful” business? What are the offerings that will most serve others, be rewarding work for me, and also help pay the bills? What "should" I focus on?
What the fungi are teaching me is to trust in the Oneness and beauty of the exquisite cycle of life. Perhaps this is simply the time in my life when these various “mushroom projects” are recycling the nutrients from my varied trainings and former practice. As they do so, they are nourishing and preparing the soil of my life for the future “trees” waiting to sprout forth when the conditions are right. How much unnecessary suffering might I avoid if I hold each experience and opportunity as one that is enriching the soil of my life to support the next growth cycle…no matter whether it unfolds perfectly or looks “successful” according to society’s standards? Can I be still in the discomfort of things looking and feeling somewhat upside-down for awhile?
They say what goes up must come down, and perhaps what we lay down intentionally will eventually rise up in new form. In the process of letting go into the deep dark soil of confusion and unknowing over the past several years, I am taking comfort in nature’s promise that the seeds of tall firs, magnificent maples and stately oaks have been resting quietly. In due time, they will sprout forth from the enriched soil of this fungi stage of my life.
Reference:
Mycelium Running, by Paul Stamets, Ten Speed Press, 2005.
So here I am, 14 months after my first “aha” moment about letting go and the process of decay in the West Virginian woods, and almost 6 months since I was astounded by numerous unique mushrooms in the verdant August woods of upstate New York. Maybe I’m a slow learner that it’s taken this long to gain clarity about why the mushrooms were turning my head. I do know I am a beginner at many things, including seeing the larger picture of my life and integrating the lessons and metaphors that are ever present to teach and guide me. Over these recent months, this fungi metaphor has been simmering within me, and I am harvesting more and more of its application to my life as I learn about the life cycle of mushrooms.
The majority of mushrooms are saprophytic decomposers, which recycle the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen and minerals of dead plants, insects and animals into rich soil. A single fungus can actually kill a large forest, and in so doing, develops deeper soil layers that support the emergence of taller stands of trees. When conditions are right, the microscopic spores that have been released from the gills of a previous mushroom will begin to reproduce by forming interconnected threads (hyphae) that grow and branch, creating a mycelial mat. These mycelium (which look very similar to pictures of brain cell networks, information-sharing systems of the Internet, and computer models of dark matter of the universe) are the source from which mushrooms arise, some sprouting forth, releasing their spores and disintegrating within days, and others lasting for months or years.
This metaphor has been most pertinent for me in terms of my work and business. As I’ve been letting go of my private practice in the form that it was for several years, I’ve noticed that conditions arose to create more connections with others that are supporting the germination of new growth and possibilities for my work. I have a sense that the mycelial mat of my life has been growing in ways I can only glimpse now and then. At the same time, various “mushrooms” have been sprouting forth in the form of upside-down parties, workshops, sound healing events and even cooking winter soups for my neighbors! As different mushrooms sprout up and die quickly while others last for years, so, too, a few of these new ventures will be short-lived and others more enduring.
During this time of change and transition, I’ve experienced my share of discouragement and overwhelm. When something doesn’t take off like I think it will, or the interest (mine or others’) seems to fizzle out as fast as it came, I tend to wonder if I’m wasting my energy. The voices in my head are varied and numerous: Why can’t I seem to get it together and create a “successful” business? What are the offerings that will most serve others, be rewarding work for me, and also help pay the bills? What "should" I focus on?
What the fungi are teaching me is to trust in the Oneness and beauty of the exquisite cycle of life. Perhaps this is simply the time in my life when these various “mushroom projects” are recycling the nutrients from my varied trainings and former practice. As they do so, they are nourishing and preparing the soil of my life for the future “trees” waiting to sprout forth when the conditions are right. How much unnecessary suffering might I avoid if I hold each experience and opportunity as one that is enriching the soil of my life to support the next growth cycle…no matter whether it unfolds perfectly or looks “successful” according to society’s standards? Can I be still in the discomfort of things looking and feeling somewhat upside-down for awhile?
They say what goes up must come down, and perhaps what we lay down intentionally will eventually rise up in new form. In the process of letting go into the deep dark soil of confusion and unknowing over the past several years, I am taking comfort in nature’s promise that the seeds of tall firs, magnificent maples and stately oaks have been resting quietly. In due time, they will sprout forth from the enriched soil of this fungi stage of my life.
Reference:
Mycelium Running, by Paul Stamets, Ten Speed Press, 2005.
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